The sail just needs to be open and love starts

Feel like I should sleep but my mind is busy and flitting from thought to thought so I've decided its better to give in and write.

I began reading 'Love poems from God' this evening a collection of spiritually nurturing prose. The first page I opened the book to was a Rumi quote ' On a day when the wind is perfect, the sail just needs to open and the love starts. Today is such a day.' Love is my religion. I have spent a large part of my life hungry for spiritual knowledge, searching and seeking for answers to the un-knowable. Love is the common thread, the divine, the mystery of creation, the truth within a human heart and as e e cumming's said 'the wonder that keeps the stars apart.'

I am living very much on a week by week cycle at the moment. Plans are limited to a few memorable dates. I am trusting that this is right for now and that everything will enfold in time.

Relationships are building at work and my pupil and I are building trust on the understanding that what ever happens on a day by day basis nothing has changed from a relationship perspective. I will still be there. Consistency is paying off slowly. I'm learning a lot about the gentle selflessness needed to put a child first. I have increased respect and love for mothers, especially my own. The difference is he was not born with unconditional love and I have to hope circumstances mean I can be there to build a sustainable relationship. I'm learning, trial and error little by little every day. It's rewarding, he is a very loving little boy.

My main aim as I go to sleep tonight is to be open to all the love that surrounds me in the simplest form and to allow it to encourage me, lift my spirits and wake up refreshed.