Heavy work days and hormones

This week has been the toughest, work wise, since qualifying as a teacher. So now I have 4. 4 wonderful boys. Individually they have so much to give, are so funny and clever and imaginative. As a combination this week has just been chaos. My new boy is severely autistic, he makes traffic noises whilst navigating himself around school. He also wants to be in an imaginary land, where he is a taxi driver. One on one he is very polite, pleasant adult company. He has little idea about games and social interaction, so I'm working on that one. What he hates is children! So throw him together with 3 very challenging, volatile children behaviourally and boom! Sparks are going to fly.

My eldest boy thinks it is fun top frighten the autistic boy, he also can't cope with the level of fractious, unpredictable outbursts which are a tool my new pupil uses to keep people away!

There have been moments of sheer ludicrousness. I haven't known whether to laugh or cry. There are times I feel like I handled the situation well and other moments when I was just reacting. The intensity of it without much of a break has been totally full on. Especially since, the last two mornings its all kicked off before 9.30 am.

The great thing is I have the backing of a really great and understanding manager and work really closely and really well with the kids key worker. Home has been a very harmonious contrast. I can literally feel the tension of the day draining from my shoulders as I enter Sidney Grove. I have been sleeping really well. Touch wood and getting lots of cuddles and good chats with my love.

Reading an amazing and very empowering book at the moment. 'Taking charge of your fertility.' It unravels the mystery of the female reproductive cycle and is a very detailed response for how to avoid pregnancy without hormones. Don't worry Mum! I will be responsible. :) It feels really important to be able to do something other than hormones, which make me feel like I'm really out of sync with my body. Would recommend it. There is another way!

Friday tomorrow. Phew! Dinner with some very wonderful ladies to look forward. Then Justine's party on Saturday. For a dose of silliness, fun and plenty of dancing. Oh yeah!