Autumn skies

The Autumn skies have been filled with billowing pink clouds and sunshine that threatens to change into showers at any given moment! All is busy in a wonderful way. House filled with friends a lot but also times like tonight when there is a lull.

I haven't managed to motivate myself to run, but I got into a wonderful book I first read when I was 20 called 'By the river Pierdra I sat down and wept' by Paulo Coelho. It is a story about the surrender of love. Written beautifully, so each night I have a good couple of chapters of that and have decided that if I wake up with my head full at 4 or 5 I will turn the light on and read. So far, although I don't want to tempt fate I've only woken briefly, this morning it was to a text message to say that my dear friend Ellie's labour had began. Her son was born at 12.23 today, wonderful news.

Work by its nature with my pupil being so complex in his needs, has been challenging. There was a fire alarm today, and kick off began around 10 because he refused to leave the class and had to be carried out kicking and screaming.

I am being fair and firm to trying my best to establish the boundaries he is so in need of and has never had. Its a hard road. The support of the staff and the small steps he is making have to be reward enough at the moment. Soon we will have two new referrals and although I think that will be difficult initially I really think it will help enormously with the balance of my sole pupil wanting to be in control. Also it will give him peers and hopefully even friends a real human need.

Tonight our house is going for a late dinner to 99. Sydney grove is filled with beautiful people and this house is particularly dear to my heart, with Paddy and Laurence living there, both of which I have lived with before and 3 wonderful girls.

Tomorrow I also hope to firm up the arrangements for Sophie's hen! Excited for her wedding day and being a bridesmaid with my beautiful sister. Matching dresses ahoy!

Sweet enjoyment.

This morning is the first in a little while that I've taken to tea and time to muse in bed. Last night Jack and I had a lovely evening, a good bit of quality time, Tapas, Sangria, and a quick turn around and single drink at Bar Kolo. I was very happy and content to be in bed by 12 as I am shattered from a heavy week with my boy at work. At around 3 am I got woke up by an insistent almost eerie ringing of the doorbell. I almost didn't answer it in case it was a mad man! It wasn't of course a friend of friends had lost our house crowd or been abandoned and was very apologetic as I let him in. I climbed back into bed and spent the next at least 3 hours trying to sleep. There has definitely been a pattern of this the past 5 weeks or so since I began falling. Its excitement and excess energy and doubt and worry and wonder and restlessness all rolled into one. I am pretty good at enjoying it. You have to really don't you. I like the moments best when I have snuggled in to a comfortable position and can feel the nearness of sleep but my mind is so intent on the symphony of feelings swirling around my head, sometimes a phrase, a look, a feeling. Its like my senses have been wildly driven to excess and I need several hours in the dark of night to come down from them.

I think I will take up running or something which will shatter me physically and push enough endorphins to my brain to help it switch off!

School has been stressful, I nearly wrote earlier in the week but felt almost like it might be inappropriate, perhaps because the level of disruption and the real anger my student it experiencing is challenging me to question my approach at every turn. Its a steep learning curve.Luckily I am very supported at work and although its gradual I can see small steps of progress most days.

My new house is great. So warm and friendly. A sanctuary of loveliness, we had a beautiful evening in with Mike and Jemma on Wednesday, team effort of making delicious pie. It was lovely to catch up with them again after the impromptu plumb jam making party at the weekend, lots of kitchen dancing and kissing each other in giddy excitement! Wednesday was all about a roaring fire, I demanded we all had boots kicked off and we happily ate the first apple and raspberry crumble of the season.

It feels like Autumn today, and all the leaves are turning orange on the Rowan tree the dawn chorus is getting later. So more tea for me,a call or two a beauty engagement with the lovely Jenny , then of to Hexham to catch up with my sister and a special visit to see the wonderful new arrival of baby Oscar!! Ah can't wait! There is nothing quite like the sweetness and new joyful energy of a new born.